A Monster's Shame


As I lay there on the cold hard floor
I see him coming closer,
please God, don't let him hurt me anymore
What have I done to deserve something like this?
I try hard to think but I do not know
Is it because I disobeyed my mother?
No, I don't think so
He stands over me looking down
A look that says "You know what happens now"
I turn away so I can't look into his face
I wonder why must again I take her place
The pain is so hard to take
I start to scream but his hand covers my face
I fight back although he is stronger then I
I know that I at least must try
Through my tears I beg him to stop
He tells me to lie still and shut up
I tell him it hurts but he does not care
He says I lie, I like it there
I tell him it is he that lies and not I
and I wont give up with out a fight
He only laughs and pulls out a knife
Defeated I close my eyes
and wonder how beautiful the stars are tonight
Wishing with all my heart that I could just see their light
Through the pain I think of my friend
God, I wish some how he would come and make it all end
The pain gets worse as I knew it would
Soon it will be over
At least I think it should

Panther

The Healing Tunnel

Child Within

Invisible

Angering Tears

Cat's Keeper

At Night

He Doesnot Care

Someone

Monster's Shame

The Tightrope

Angel's Anger

Taking Flight

Soul's Cry

Daddy

Star Wish

Our Secret

To Be Free

Road to Recovery

Inner Child

My Prison

Letter to My Teachers

Disease of the Mind

Like a Thief

Hidden Pain

Blind Eye

Don't Fall

Doom

Silence

The Reaper

Into my Soul

When the Time Comes

Christmas

In Need Of

The Form

Did You Know?

The Face

The Reminders

Am I a Rape Survivor??

I am The Survivor

The Pheonix

Lessons

Black and Blue

I'm Just a little Girl

Is it ok for me to Tell

Nature's Healing

Prisoner

Butterfly

My Life

Anger

Nightmares


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