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Some can be cured, some kill, Some you can only lower the pain and learn to live as close to an average life as you can. I wish to speak of the latter. It is a disease of the mind. Mainly generating in the subconscious, it is very common and can be contagious. It starts as a child. No age is too young,-no gender is immune. An individual or individuals, whom have a hunger for power, and are highly infected by this disease in its advanced stage, will come in contact with a child much younger then themselves. There are many ways to infect a child. Sexual embarrassment, pornography, touching, torture, and even intercourse. From then on that child is changed. Never to regain the innocence lost. Side effects include, humiliation, loneliness, shame, depression, fear, low self-esteem, and even loss of memory. As the child turns into an adult, he or she has an unconscious choice. Spreading the disease or containing it. Now I can only speak of my own experience. I was 3 when I was infected. It was forced upon me by my oldest brother and his friend. They transmitted it by touch of their mouths, hands, bodies, and intercourse. There was great pain involved in both my body and mind. I experienced many of the side effects. I chose to contain the disease. Later it affected my marriage, and choice of friends. It came between my sex life with my husband. It seemed every time my husband and I were together in that way, my subconscious would spread it to my conscious and I would not know the past from the present. So I sought treatment and decided to put all my time and energy in into curing this plague! Since then I have learned many things but two stick out in my mind the most. 1-That there is no known cure. I can be stricken with new memories at any time that would disorient me. No matter how old I became. 2-The only half cure is to learn techniques to lower the disorientation and keep me present. I am grateful for these tools because they help me live a close to normal life. But I am very angry that I was stricken with this disease. That I was changed from a healthy mind into a now surviving mind! I am Very angry that I will have to fight it for the rest of my life! All because of two selfish carriers! I give a call to all who are infected----seek the half cure instead of no cure!!! Don't transmit this! Don't keep it locked away so it eats at your life! You can seek the truth! You can be mostly cured! You can find tools to help you fight this Disease of the Mind! ~Bonnie~ like to be posted here, Mail me Add your name to others who have survived childhood sexual abuseBreaking the Silence Comradery Read other's stories of abuse and gain courage from them.Breaking the Silence Supported you through your trials inThe Rock of Support for all to see in The Wall Hope for Recovery of courage, tenasity, and ability to break the cycle against all odds in the amazing site called Ghostwolf 1-800-96-ABUSE  |
