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It took a moment to calm my fears. I was frozen for that brief time My thoughts were lost with no reason or rhyme. I cleared my head as I shook out the sleep 'Cause for once I had slept so sound and deep. My demons had left me for that one night And given me time from my restless plight. So who was that crying so near to me? So close I could hear her breath, you see. What was it that drew her to my side Compelling her to come to me and hide. I asked her "What's the matter, hon? What has stolen from you the sun? And cast you in a world so dark, What is it that took your innocent spark?" Quietly she sat, looking deep in my eyes And just for a moment she looked ancient and wise. For when I first saw her, she looked to be seven As if an angel, who'd fallen from heaven. "I am a child who's been hurt so deep By loved ones who warned me not to utter a peep. They said if I did, I'd lose everything To myself and to others - only sorrow I'd bring." After she'd said this, she lowered her head Then curled up tightly like a babe in a bed. I leaned down and held her, so tight to my chest My heart was so heavy for my tiny sweet guest. "For someone as young as you are, dear child It isn't your fault that you were defiled. No one can blame you for living in fright And being too scared to put up a fight." Slowly she sat up and gazed at my face There was something about her, I just couldn't place. What was it about her that gnawed at my soul? Some far away mem'ry? I needed to know. "You wonder and ponder just who I might be But ma'am if I told you - you'd be angry with me. I am the one who's caused so much pain The 'pile of logs that's blocking the train.'" "For as you grew and matured in age I stayed where I was, trapped in my cage. Just out of reach, there was the key But no one would help me, in spite of my plea." "So fin'lly I gave in, and succumbed to my fate Til shortly you felt for me nothing but hate. And now I beg you, please set me free From this horrible dungeon - that holds you and me." "Please find in your heart that care that you give To family and friends with whom you live. Please reach out your hand with that loving touch To your inner child that you still hate so much." "Please give me the chance to reach from my prison And climb to the heights that you have arisen. Only then can we stop and rest And live the life that we have been blest." Michelle Ochs May 26, 1999 * Copyright 1999 Please do not duplicate without permission from author. like to be posted here, Mail me This site is where you can add your name to others who have survived childhood sexual abuseBreaking the Silence Comradery and gain courage from them.Breaking the Silence Supported you through your trials inThe Rock of Support for all to see in The Wall Hope for Recovery of courage, tenasity, and ability to break the cycle against all odds in the amazing site called Ghostwolf 
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